Holidays

21Sep09

So, it’s about that time to start thinking about holidays and it is giving me a headache. The year before last my stepfather really wanted to spend Christmas in Trinidad. Therefore I dragged myself down there and it was terrible. It was soooo boring. There was nothing to do and they did nothing besides sit in the house. I wanted to shoot myself. I was angry and upset the entire time. And when I am angry and upset I like to share that feeling. I was a bit of a brat. I don’t like when I act that way either, which sent me further down a spiral of anger. I vowed to NEVER do that again or be stuck somewhere I did not want to be ever again.

One of the things I dislike about Trinidad is that it is not safe to go anywhere alone and that you are trapped in your house at night. It’s different at Carnival time as your cousins are free to take you out and other cousins are in town and you can roam around as a group. However, for the most part I’m not use to having a chaperone to leave the damn house! Plus, it’s Christmas. I want to go out and see people. Preferably my friends. In Vancouver.

Anywho, I am laying down the gauntlet now. If Mama J wants to spend Christmas in Trinidad she should, but she’ll be doing that with just my stepfather. I am not wasting my $$ to go there and be trapped in that house when I could go at Carnival and have fun, even if that means sucking it up and spending Christmas solo. I’m talking big and bad now, but we’ll see if I can stick with it. Maybe it’s time for me to grow up. Ugh.

 Doing what I want,
Miz JJ

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